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Self Portrait Crying
Self Portrait Crying
At Sunset
At Sunset
Barbed Wire Fence
Barbed Wire Fence
Backseat
Backseat
Breathe
Breathe
Burning Orange Grove
Burning Orange Grove
Cabin
Cabin
Mercury Vapor No.14
Mercury Vapor No.14
Catching Light In My Hat
Catching Light In My Hat
Clouds
Clouds
Cowboys
Cowboys
The Deluge No.10
The Deluge No.10
Cowlick
Cowlick
Diving Board
Diving Board
Drag Queen In Kudzu
Drag Queen In Kudzu
Dying Orange Grove
Dying Orange Grove
Easter Sunday
Easter Sunday
Fan
Fan
First Haircut
First Haircut
Flamingo
Flamingo
Fronds
Fronds
Graveside
Graveside
Green Pineapple
Green Pineapple
Grendella
Grendella
Hair Monster
Hair Monster
Held
Held
His Hand Fell In Shadow
His Hand Fell In Shadow
In The Hammock
In The Hammock
In The Mercury Vapor Light
In The Mercury Vapor Light
It's So Pretty It Looks Artificial
It's So Pretty It Looks Artificial
Julie's World
Julie's World
Julie
Julie
Little Bruce
Little Bruce
Mercury Vapor No.10
Mercury Vapor No.10
Muddin'
Muddin'
On The Day I Was Raped
On The Day I Was Raped
On The Trampoline
On The Trampoline
The Deluge No.13
The Deluge No.13
Oranges
Oranges
Orchid
Orchid
Piano Teacher
Piano Teacher
Piggyback
Piggyback
Pineapple
Pineapple
Pippin' Hot
Pippin' Hot
Pool At Midnight
Pool At Midnight
Prancing Llama
Prancing Llama
Mercury Vapor No.1
Mercury Vapor No.1
Prom
Prom
Rest
Rest
Sheep
Sheep
Sunday Afternoon
Sunday Afternoon
Sunday Dinner
Sunday Dinner
Sundowner
Sundowner
Taitor
Taitor
Tied Up
Tied Up
Waiting
Waiting
What Remains
What Remains
White Chair
White Chair
The Deluge No.9
The Deluge No.9
White Hair
White Hair
White
White
With Gun
With Gun
Onward
Onward

Orange Blossoms, Fire Ants, And The Tyranny Of Memory

Artist Statement

In 2000 I decided that I would return to where I grew up, to photographically document what it was like in to live in a small town in South Florida at the turn of the millennium. After shooting for a month, deeply disturbing memories from my childhood began to surface, which triggered a nervous breakdown. When I returned home I went into therapy. It occurred to me that if I could make a photographic representation of these specific events from my childhood, I could own them outside of myself as an object and that these memories would no longer hold a shadowy power over my subconscious.

 
From 2001 to 2011 I returned to Florida at least once a year to make images with friends and family.  I would either recreate specific events or I would stay present in my process for images to arise that could hold the emotional weight of memories that remained half shrouded. In the end what I remembered was my resilience and defiance as a child in the face of an overwhelmingly large and seemingly unsafe world. What that came to mean for me as an adult, was the realization that the spectres of my past had no real substance, as if they were only made up of vapor and light.

 

Orange Blossoms,
Fire Ants, and the
Tyranny of Memory